𝘽𝙡𝙤𝙤𝙙, 𝙎𝙬𝙚𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙏𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙨 🩸💦💧
To express without baby’s latch is really challenging. But I’m grateful to those who shared their tips, videos, and one particular nurse (Fazilah) in NICU who is taking care of our lil sweetheart. I wanted to have the lactation nurse to watch (me) if I’m doing it right bcs I wasn’t been able to yield excellent volume according to baby’s needs. But bcs the PIC was off, Fazilah agreed to help. She shared with me the technique and what works for her and most importantly, it’s very relaxing and not painful at all. ❤️
Initially I thought I was going to miss this chance (to harvest the colostrum) since baby was not with me and I wasn’t performing up to expectation. When I asked for guidance from the lactation nurse in my ward, all I rmber was how hard she squeeze my nipples n I was alr on the verge of crying. 😭 She told me this is the way to do and that’s the pain level I need to meet. 😵💫😵🤯🤬🥵😡 So I just did exactly what she said and for the first few days of “stimulation exercise”, I was in so much pain n misery. 🙇🏻♀️ It was hell of a torture 🧨💣🔪💥🔥and it makes me wonder why do mothers have to go through such suffering when the body were still recovering from the horrific labor pain; mentally and physically 🤒
But really, thanks God for sending us Fazilah just when we need it the most ❤️🔥❤️🩹💓
Bae visits the hospital daily. Already very popular among the guards and NICU staff 😅 He was always there to bring me things I need (and don’t need eg: sinful snacks) to make sure I have a pleasant stay. 🥰 He’ll push me on wheelchair all the way from my ward to baby’s at NICU. And we’ll both spend our quality time with our lil sweetheart 👶🏻. And you’re right, I don’t rmber the pain anymore when I see her, but if u ask if I’m ready for No.2, I can firmly tell you, I AM NOT LAH 😅😂🤣
I was ideally, expecting for natural birth VAB so I don’t risk for any complications or them touching my existing scars but 𝙄𝙏 𝘿𝙄𝘿𝙉’𝙏 𝙃𝘼𝙋𝙋𝙀𝙉.. CSEC on my midline scar with 100% epidural 💢
I was ideally, expecting for 10cm dilation, so I practiced an active lifestyle throughout pregnancy with hiking, swimming and walking but 𝙄𝙏 𝘿𝙄𝘿𝙉’𝙏 𝙃𝘼𝙋𝙋𝙀𝙉.. I have to endure 6 hours of contraction pain and labor still did not happen, hence, emergency C - SEC 🆘
I was ideally, expecting ok maybe if it end up with CSEC, it’ll be a fast and smooth surgery like cancer days and just recuperate at home for 2 weeks and I’ll be back on my feet again but 𝙄𝙏 𝘿𝙄𝘿𝙉’𝙏 𝙃𝘼𝙋𝙋𝙀𝙉.. I end up have to be readmitted due to infection and inflammation on my incision with on/off fever and was constantly in severe pain despite being prescribed pain killer 💊
I was ideally, expecting baby will be home with me right after birth but 𝙄𝙏 𝘿𝙄𝘿𝙉’𝙏 𝙃𝘼𝙋𝙋𝙀𝙉.. little did I expect, she’ll be admitted to NICU for Congenital Pneumonia and Jaundice (this is well aware bcs both of us are O+) 🩸
Yes, as I’m writing this, I’m back in the hospital (again) but feeling much better; 𝒃𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒆𝒓 not because of the 100 positive things that has happened. ⚠️ 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙗𝙘𝙨 𝙤𝙛 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙊𝙉𝙀 𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙥𝙚𝙣 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙥𝙞𝙩𝙚 99 𝙣𝙚𝙜𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙩𝙧𝙞𝙚𝙨 𝙩𝙤 𝙧𝙪𝙞𝙣 𝙞𝙩. ㊗️ This time, I’m referring to my colostrum harvesting! They’re all hand express 😜 I am not born strong but I choose to learn on how to be one. I know how tough pregnancy n motherhood journey can be but I choose to ride on it bcs that’s exactly what I wanted. 𝙄’𝙢 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙖𝙡𝙡𝙮 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙮 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙖 𝙛𝙖𝙢𝙞𝙡𝙮. 👨👩👦 It’s definitely tough, and sometimes one might feels like giving up but I’m thankful n grateful to have a very supportive n understanding husband and fam. It makes the journey less lonely and more encouraging ❤️
Now I understand why we need to 𝙘𝙚𝙡𝙚𝙗𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙈𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧’𝙨 𝘿𝙖𝙮 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙢𝙞𝙪𝙢 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙧𝙤𝙩𝙞 𝙠𝙤𝙨𝙤𝙣𝙜 𝙛𝙤𝙧 𝙁𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧’𝙨 𝘿𝙖𝙮 😂😂😂
P/S: Baby and Mummy will continue to be admitted until further notice 🚸
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