I've been a little quiet lately, I don't know why but I often feel the need to just relax and not think about my aesthetic and feed and how to churn out content. I think I was happiest when I first started out, to be honest. I was discovering new things, getting excited about an email from a brand I loved, learning new things and skills, and putting my heart and soul into content that didn't need to go through someone for approval. Hopefully I can bring myself back to that place, because I genuinely love beauty and I love being able to share that with you guys and recommend a product that you guys end up loving. Missing the good old days but looking forward to making new, happy memories. I hope you'll join me and enjoy what I put out ❤️
I'm wearing:
@kvdveganbeauty Ultra Ink Liner
@fentybeauty Cheeks Out Cream Blush 'Strawberry Drip' & Bronzer 'Macchiato' to contour
@lilybyredmy Bloody Liar Coating Tint '06'
@olens_contactlens Russian Velvet Blue contact lenses
同時也有3部Youtube影片,追蹤數超過885萬的網紅Michelle Phan,也在其Youtube影片中提到,Hi. I'm part of the short hair club now :) s/o to James Miju for my special cut ✂ https://www.instagram.com/jamesmiju/ ✄ https://www.instagram.com/...
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7. 🌸 Sharon
I enjoy all the beauties and the good in life: a bouquet of flowers, rainbows, the delicacy of porcelain china, the touch of snuggly fabrics, the scent of nature, the list could go on and on.
Samuel and I married early, we bought our first apartment with limited budget, I still tried hard to make the most of it to fit my “perfection”.
The small balcony was filled with plants and flowers. It was my secret garden, I can sip my cup of coffee and watch my greens all morning.
Not just the balcony; my kitchen was equipped with aesthetic and functional silverware and pots; I knocked down the tiles provided by the construction company, just to choose my own tiles, not to mention what I went through to find the right fabric and color for those hand towels.
Thus, I can not accept the fact that I was going to spend the rest of my life in a wheel-chair.
There was no more perfection.
The first year was the darkest time in my life. It felt like decades. No matter how hard I tried to squirm out of the whirlpool of darkness, the more I struggled, the more I was sucked into it. I was drowning.
There’s so much than what you see “a person in a wheelchair” who’s paralyzed. You don’t have bladder control, you suffer dysautonomia which simply means you have pains and cramps sending to your system by your damaged nerves. There are also issues like obesity, osteoporosis, and kidney, heart and lungs problems.
My stubborn tumor cuts me from T8-9, meaning from about 3 cm above my belly button until my waist down, I don’t feel a thing, and I can’t budge a toe. All of a sudden, from 167 cm tall, I became 125cm. With that height, I can’t see the faces of people, I can’t smell the fresh air, and no more scenic views for me.
Due to the PTSD, I started to lose weight, but with no balance and muscle to straighten my back, my tummy always stuck out. I looked like a shrimp that has a 6 months belly in a wheel chair. I had to throw out all my tight and pretty clothes in change of clothes that could cover up the bulging tummy, and easy to put on pants with elastic waists. My beloved shoes had to go too, my feet are easily swollen, I need bigger shoes.
My choice of clothing and trend was banished.
The nerve pains follow me EVERY SINGLE DAY, 24-7. The medications can only do so much. Isn’t it an irony? I can’t feel my son’s hands touching my legs. Or someone just come and pinch me, let me get some real pain here. Nope, they are all gone. Dealing with the pains of my body takes up most of my energy everyday.
I had to record everything that I take in and out too. I had to decide to rely on adult diapers or to use catheter. My pride and frustration was about to explode. It took one year with the help of my doctor to understand my body and find the way that I was most comfortable with.
My legs are paralyzed, and my weight kept on dropping. Physically and mentally I was a mess.
I could never get to my balcony anymore; my pretty tiles had handles on them; my velvet dresser chair became an obstacle for my wheel chair, so it had to go.
My porcelain tea cups were too high for me to reach. I can no more decorate my table exactly the way I want to.
These were nothing compared to how I had to pretend everything was alright with in front of Andrew. He was two, and he was just ecstatic mommy wasn’t leaving him every two to three months. I played and laughed with him everyday, until he sleeps.
But it was a pretty pass.
I have witnessed him tumbling down the stairs in a friend’s house. I was right there! There was nothing I could do except to bite my lips from screaming out loud. Hundreds of things that could have happened to him, and my SOPs zoomed through my mind in the flick of seconds. Samuel ran over to pick up our frightened baby, Andrew held out his arms to me. I held him tight, checked him from head to toe. I thank the Almighty that he was not hurt.
Sometimes, I sat on my recliner instead of the wheel chair. Andrew wanted me to follow him to his room and play. I took a piece of my heart and threw it to him, he catches it, pats his own heart. “Mommy is following you now.” My two-year-old walks always without any complaints.
I tried to be the super-mom that I wanted to be, I took Andrew downstairs to play by myself. When I tried to catch a balloon that flew away, I fell head over heals. Andrew was in so much fright that he refused to go anyway alone with me for the longest time.
I suck everything up in the morning, my tears, my frustration, my sorrows. Once Andrew falls asleep, the waterworks ran like tap water, it wouldn’t stop. No one can comfort me, no one could help me, not even Samuel. We have been fighting this battle for years side by side, we were not ready to face the defeat.
I wasn’t ready to talk to anyone about this. I can’t lose my sanity in front of Andrew. He deserves a better mommy and a lot more happiness.
My blue print for being a Mother was to be there for my kid: race in the park, lie on the grass and gaze at the sky, teach him how to swim. When it’s time for school, I want to be friends of his friends, I am going to run for the coolest mom in the whole class.
But now, life isn’t pretty any more.
All good that’s left, was Andrew.
blue aesthetic heart 在 Michelle Phan Youtube 的最佳解答
Hi. I'm part of the short hair club now :)
s/o to James Miju for my special cut
✂ https://www.instagram.com/jamesmiju/
✄ https://www.instagram.com/dearmiju/
He also has a YT channel here ☞
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1icFuX3QLv7zJofZTl39OQ
? Music
✧ Ashton Edminster - Deep - https://thmatc.co/?l=594DDE5B
✦ Namoo Nara - Endlessly (Sang Gak Hae) - https://thmatc.co/?l=BBBF6CBF
✧ Madeline Lauer - Breakfast - https://thmatc.co/?l=77688B88
✧ Check out Thematic where we curate fresh music for your content without the worries of takedowns -
https://app.hellothematic.com
Find me…
✧ https://www.instagram.com/michellephan/
✦ https://vm.tiktok.com/pK4ms9/
✧ https://twitter.com/michellephan
✦ https://facebook.com/MichellePhanOfficial
☾ PRODUCTS
EM LIP CUSHION in MAGIC HOUR
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/the-magic-hour-collection/products/lip-cushion
VDL LUMILAYER PRIMER
https://vdlus.com/products/lumilayer-primer
TOO FACED MULTI-USE SCULPTING CONCEALER
https://www.toofaced.com/product/23785/63691/face-makeup/concealer/born-this-way-super-coverage-concealer
BITE CHANGE MAKER POWDER
https://www.bitebeauty.com/changemaker-flexible-coverage-pressed-powder/BB20003.html
EM MICRO-FLUFF SCULPTING BROW CREAM
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/brow-cream
EM FINE-LINER BROW PENCIL
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/brow-pencil
EM LIP CLOUD in FADED CLEMENTINE
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/infinite-lip-clouds/products/faded-clementine-infinite-lip-cloud
BITE LIP CRAYON in MIDNIGHT RYE
https://www.bitebeauty.com/lip-color/lip-crayon
EM DIVINE SKIES
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/the-magic-hour-collection/products/divine-skies
EM BRUSH TIP LINER in BROWN
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/illustrative-eyeliners
EM LIP CLOUD in RADIANT DAWN
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/infinite-lip-clouds/products/radiant-dawn
EM HEAVEN’S GLOW in FADED CLEMENTINE
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/heavens-glow-radiant-veil-blush
EM TRUE GLOSS in MAGIC HOUR
https://www.emcosmetics.com/collections/true-gloss/products/magic-hour-true-gloss
JUNO & CO Brushes
https://www.thejuno.co/collections/all-brushes
GEO ELAMIS LENS in OCRE BROWN
https://www.pinkyparadise.com/Geo-Elamis-Orce-Brown-p/b28-elamisbr.htm
☯ FASHION
Jacket
https://jingus.com/collections/outerwear-for-women-j-ing/products/indiana-blue-utility-jacket
Bottom
https://jingus.com/collections/bottoms/products/porter-blue-belted-shorts
Earrings
Jing May (heart shaped ) Earrings are sold out :/
Production -
If you're looking for the most aesthetic video production for product shots, music videos, fashion, film and more, Ms Robot is where it's at. Ask for Nate Fu. He's a lighting God. He recreated this natural sunlight look using one light bulb. Crazy I know.
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Desktop animation by - https://www.instagram.com/naked_cherry/
Stickers animation by - https://www.instagram.com/averyota/
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blue aesthetic heart 在 Laura Ribeiro Youtube 的精選貼文
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Music used in this video
Music by MYSM - Indie Feel - https://thmatc.co/?l=6A8C7B1B
Music by Ryan Little - Lovesick. (Nomad's Heart) - https://thmatc.co/?l=34840D5E
Music by Elli Moore - OK - https://thmatc.co/?l=FA7DE93F
Music by VALNTN & Anna Clendening - Be Here - https://thmatc.co/?l=19A7D249
Music by MYSM - Honeymoon At The Holiday Inn - https://thmatc.co/?l=A290F963
Music by Fiji Blue - Space Makes Me Sad - https://thmatc.co/?l=8F1BDF5E
Music by Cailee Rae - Deeper - https://thmatc.co/?l=11E3AB3
Music by Mark Generous - Orange And Pomegranate - https://thmatc.co/?l=16FCBDC8
Music by MYSM - Fucked Up Today - https://thmatc.co/?l=58D771A
Music by Cassette Tapes - This Year (Instrumental) - https://thmatc.co/?l=507860F5
Music by Jacks Haupt - 3AM - https://thmatc.co/?l=27E5554A
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