#阿凱的淺文字
你給我故事，我畫給你世界。(See below for English translation)
三十是一個什麼樣的數字？
十年前二十歲的自己，想著這時候應該在一間落地窗能看見台北全景的辦公室裡，坐擁自己的事業，或許不是很有成就，但應該已經在籌備人生的第一部電影了吧！周旋於每一位富有才華的人之間，和他們一起共事，每天都是不同的刺激與火花。
二十年前十歲的自己，想不到那麼遠，卻大概也能想像現在的樣子，應該成為一位成熟的大人了吧？或許擁有一些那時候沒辦法想像的煩惱，但因為能夠做的事情有好多好多，再怎麼不快樂，應該也是幸福的吧！
看過去的自己，注視現階段的自己，遙望未來的自己，三十，代表著什麼呢？
你會忍心回去和那時候的自己說，長大，或許並不是一件那麼令人嚮往的事情，每天叫醒你的，也不是夢想而是堆積如山的帳單。
你能做的事情變多了！但你願意做的事情卻更少了！你不再像以前一樣和朋友說約就約，連傳訊息過去都害怕變成一種打擾，因為彼此的生活不同了！唯一僅存共同的情感，只剩下回憶。所以比起人群，你更喜歡獨處。
然後你終於發現夢想是有錢人的玩意，你拚盡全力掌握的每一分努力，都只是加速讓你認清現實，讓你了解自己與世界的差距。於是不斷的挫折、咬緊牙關往前，再承受新的挫折，好一點你磨出了屬於自己的形狀，比較可惜的那些人，便成為風沙，消失在宇宙塵埃裡。
三十，對我來說，是一個階段，是與某種任性告別的日子，是完結了某些情感卻能夠再承接新的重量的年紀，是讓你能夠繼續掌握些什麼，卻能更成熟的前進的時刻，是一個結束也是一個開始。
夢想中的工作室還沒完成，但擁有一台筆電，在哪裡好像都能掌握全世界。盼望中的文字著作還沒誕生，但我的文字卻一點一點地將情感傳遞給更多人。有許多想做的事、有許多已經完成的事、有許多結好的善緣正在發酵、有許多期待正在被發生。
我期許三十歲的自己能擁有一雙翅膀，這雙翅膀除了帶著我飛，也能陪你們翱翔，能給我更高更遠更自由的力量。所以這張圖也希望能給你們一雙翅膀，無拘無束自在的前往更多地方。
屬於阿凱的三十歲的生日活動很簡單，你只要寫一封手寫信給我(寄至11699世新大學郵局第12號信箱-夫夫之道阿凱 收)，或許和我傾訴一些事，一些美好的確幸、一些生活的苦惱、一些獲得和一些失去，什麼都能和我說，而我會按照當下閱讀後的心情，繪一張圖，送給你。
你給我故事，我畫給你世界。
然後在這個不那麼完美的世界，有你我伴隨，就好像又抓住了一點微小卻強大的力量，我們都能再多走一點，多走一點。實現的那一天，或許就能更近了！
📪 收件時間：即日起至10/05止（以郵戳為憑）
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Just words – by Kai
Tell me your story, and I will draw you your world.
What does Thirty mean to you?
Ten years ago when I was twenty, I thought by now I would be in an office with ceiling-to-floor glass walls looking down to the buzz of Taipei, championing my career. I might not be the most successful, but I would probably be starting my first movie! I would be surrounded by talented people, enjoying the vibrant creativity brought in by them.
Twenty years ago when I was ten, I was not thinking too far into the future. However I was imagining I would have matured into a reliable adult. I might have problems I did not notice as a ten year-old, but I should still be happy since I can do so much more!
I look at myself in the past. I look at myself in the present moment. I look at myself into the future. Thirty. What does this mean?
Would you want to tell that kid in the past, that growing up might not be as good as you thought? That instead of flying high, you will be tied down by your bills?
You can do so much more, yet there is so little that you actually want to do. You stopped hanging out with your friends spontaneously. Everyone’s lives become so different you even hesitate to send a text, as it may be an inconvenience to them. There is nothing left but memories. Therefore you want to be alone, rather than with people.
And you realize that dreams are only for the rich to pursue. The harder you work on reaching your dreams, the faster you come to realize the distance between what you want and what you can have. You fail, push on, fail again. If you are lucky your better self may start to take shape. Otherwise, you crumble into bits and pieces, utterly unrecognizable.
Thirty. To me, this is a phase where I bid farewell to a certain kind of stubbornness. An age where a part of my life has ended but I am ready for something bigger and heavier. A time when I can still maintain certain things inside of me, but at the same time become more mature and all-rounded. It’s an end and a beginning.
The studio in my dream is still nonexistent, yet I feel like I have the world through my notebook computer. The novel in my dream is still nonexistent, but I have spread warmth through what I wrote. There are many things I want to do, many things I have done. I have built plenty of fulfilling relationships, with many more awaiting.
At thirty years of age, I would like to have a pair of wings. I want to soar, and I want to do that with all of you. I want to bring myself higher up to the big free sky. I want to send you a pair of wings through my drawing, so that you too, can soar.
I am going to have a simple activity for my thirtieth birthday. If you want, write me a letter by hand (address: P.O.BOX 12 Shih Hsin University, Taipei City 11699, Taiwan ( R.O.C.)), tell me something about yourself, things you are happy about, things you are not so happy about, things you have gained, things you have lost. It can be anything. I will draw you a picture according to what I feel like after I read your letter.
Tell me your story, and I will draw you your world.
It is always better to have each other around in this imperfect world. It gives us just a little bit more, so that we can carry on for a little bit more, and a little bit more. Maybe one day, that will bring us to reach the sky.
📪 We will be accepting letters from now on until the 5th of October (according to postal stamp)
