關於 stop crying your heart out ，我們在網路上蒐集到這些相關的討論、資訊與評價

《蝴蝶效應》（Butterfly Effect, 2004）是由艾瑞克·布萊茲導演，由曾經主演《賈伯斯》（Jobs, 2013）的艾希頓·庫奇主演，穿梭在過去、記憶、與日記，去改變幼時的關鍵時刻，也改變一群四個小朋友的命運。

在2004，這種穿梭時空改變命運的電影尚不多見，於是《蝴蝶效應》在當年喧騰一時，不只賣座也票房驚人，後來還在2006與2009追加第二集與第三集，不過效果不佳，也只有以DVD發行。

記得在2004年的時候，我是在電影院觀看這部電影，當時緊張不已，幾乎是緊抓著椅子手把焦慮不已。不過今天看來，故事已經不再刺激，因為這十七年來，我們早已看過更多刺激精彩又燒腦的科幻驚悚電影了。

＃時間迴圈電影
現在是2021，如果要我選擇同樣是「時間迴圈（time loop）」為主題的電影，《蝴蝶效應》應該很難列入，因為在21世紀，有太多好看的「時間迴圈」故事。今天介紹五部至今讓我難忘也極為喜愛的時間迴圈科幻（照時間排列）。

有趣的是，下面這五部時間迴圈電影，雖然都是燒腦的科幻，也多驚悚恐怖，但是，故事的核心卻是愛情，都是為了拯救自己最愛的人，強迫自己進入時間迴圈，在找尋解救愛人的方法時，也同時找尋出關於自我的答案。
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＃倒帶人生2009
《倒帶人生》（Mr. Nobody, 2009）稱不上是正統的時間迴圈電影。故事是以倒敘法的方式，從一個已經達到永生的未來，一個再也沒有死亡的世界，回顧地球曾經有死亡的世界，當時的「人生意義」是什麼。

故事中以「強制被動的棋局（zugzwang）」為主軸，讓主角搖擺在「放手讓情勢決定命運」與「放手一搏殺出活路」之間。當然，故事最後想告訴我們的是，與其讓命運決定未來，不如運用自由意志，殺出一條自己的道路，因為人生最好的作者，就是自己。

倘若人生是場棋局，就要選擇自己最愛的路，與最愛的人，然後盡情認真地玩樂這場遊戲。時間迴圈的故事，多半燒腦，由丹麥的 Jaco Van Dormael 所編劇與導演的《倒帶人生》，燒腦度大概四星半（五星為滿分）。
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＃啟動原始碼2011
《啟動原始碼》（Source Code）是由 Duncan Jones 導演，以及 Jake Gyllenhaal 主演。這是導演繼 Moon 《2009月球漫遊》之後的第二部科幻電影，闡述某種可能超越時空的方式。而 Gyllenhaal 主演的角色 Colter Stevens，即是電影敘事裡所謂的「原始碼」（source code），或說是原始碼的轉譯者。

開發原始碼這項新科技的科學家是 Dr. Rutledge，他假設一個處在彌留狀態的意識，可以進入其他死者的體內取代死者的意識，看見死者在死前八分鐘的世界，並且經歷死者當時的處境。所謂的原始碼，即是彌留者在進入死者意識八分鐘裡所能獲取的一切資料。

這是個關於生命選擇的電影，有沒有可能可以同時讓「永恆」與「經驗」並行呢？有種可能性，就是當時間不再是線性的時候，不再像火車一樣，一節接著一節，過去接著現在，現在接著未來地，不斷直線前進，就有可能讓永恆與經驗同時並存。

《啟動原始碼》的燒腦度，三星半。
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＃明日邊界2014
《明日邊界》（Edge of Tomorrow）改編自日本小說 All You Need Is Kill （櫻板洋 著），是個科幻電影，描述凱吉（Cage）生死輪迴（Live, Die, Repeat）百來次，決意殺掉難以捉摸之敵人的故事。

凱吉真正的敵人，其實，都是「自己」。雖然凱吉看似在對抗的是外在的敵人，實際上卻是他自己內在的膽怯與恐懼。

如果說《明日邊界》可以被當成是一個勵志故事，最為勵志的部份，應該不只在於「有志者事竟成」的部分，而是在面對自己的恐懼，以及面對自己人性弱點時的態度。《明日邊界》的燒腦度：四顆星。
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＃超時空攔截2014
《超時空攔截》（Predestination）是由澳大利亞導演 Michael and Peter Spierig 改編自 Robert A. Heinlein 的短篇小說 All You Zombies (1959)。

這部電影的主要演員有三人，Sarah Snook 飾演 Jane/John，Ethan Hawke 飾演酒保/旅行騎兵，還有 Noah Taylor 飾演 Mr. Roberson。

《超時空攔截》使用的時空旅行模式，是科幻小說裡常見的命定悖論。整部電影，可以說就是，以故事來呈現命定悖論的公式：蛇無止盡地吃掉自己的尾巴。

悔恨是推進無窮命定的成因，有沒有任何的轉機，可以改變命運的無窮循環？Fizzle Bomber告訴酒保，有機會，「愛」。《超時空攔截》的燒腦度：五顆星。
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＃只有我不存在的城市2016
《只有我不存在的城市》由日本漫畫家三部敬所創作的動漫，故事中，主角藤沼悟回到過去的1988年，在當時的日本東京與埼玉，曾經發生多起凶殘的連續女童誘拐殺人案，《只有我不存在的城市》的故事內容也與當時的真實事件有諸多細節重疊，讓人不得不佩服三部敬的偉大精神，他雖未聲明自己的作品與社會案件的直接關聯，卻默默地以正義、慈悲與善良重建歷史，也為漫畫中的受害女孩保留溫暖與佑護。

在現實案件中受害的女孩們，都遭受到極為殘忍的肉體磨難。雖然現實已經無法改變，但是在想像的空間，悲劇可以改寫、歷史可以重建、記憶可以重繪。於是，在《只有我不存在的城市》，三部敬透過主角藤沼悟不斷地回溯與倒帶，親身回到過去，以行動改變歷史，扭轉悲劇，讓那些可能會在事件中受到苦難的女孩子們得到保護，同時也把即將降落在她們身上的磨難轉移，交由主角藤沼悟的肉體承擔。

這是東方佛教的業力概念，假若悲劇終究會發生，人間的業障無法逃避，唯一能改變的，就是將這些災難轉嫁他人，肉體的劫難對小女生來說實在太殘酷，三部敬於是轉嫁這些悲傷，交給承擔得起的心智與身體——年輕漫畫家藤沼悟。《只有我不存在的城市》燒腦度，兩顆半。

＃StopCryingYourHeartOut
《蝴蝶效應》的片尾曲是綠洲合唱團的 Stop Crying Your Heart Out。這是我最喜歡的樂團之一，回味這歌詞中的美麗境界：

'Cause all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them someday
Take what you need, and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
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最後，你最喜歡哪部時間迴圈電影呢？
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＃每天陪你宅在家看一部好電影Day27
＃2021年6月12日
＃蝴蝶效應�＃ButterflyEffect2004
＃棕櫚泉不思議2020
＃迴路殺手2012

【我親愛的Zoom視訊客人們】
To My Dear Zoom Clients

我忍了真的⋯⋯真的⋯⋯很久，今天過後實在忍無可忍，一定要叮嚀所有過去和未來的客人們。

我年紀很大了，受不了太大的刺激。

拜託，你們可以Zoom好來嗎？😓😑

一、Zoom視訊的視角 = 拍護照照的視角

護照自2020年起就已成為古董，但大家這一生應該有拍過證件照吧！

對了，就是要頭髮整齊，讓我看到你的雙耳、雙眼、鼻子、嘴巴、頸項和肩膀，到胸部。

我批八字時，需要看整個面相。不要讓你一半的臉掉出鏡頭外，這樣很像鍾無艷，也不要嘴巴不見掉，這樣我很像在跟一條羅漢魚視訊。

我看面相包括看你的嘴巴、牙齒和說話時的嘴形。是的，看相就是需要那麼仔細。

如果你的螢幕太低，那就找書本或舊報紙，把螢幕墊高一點。別讓我整一個小時半只看到你的雙下巴，會把你的面相比例給看錯。

不要一直告訴我不好意思，方法是人想出來的。

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二、光線

太暗，我看你如見鬼。
太亮，我會看不清你的膚色。
拉開窗簾，不要背向陽光。
有必要的話，就直接開燈！

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三、勿放什麼椰樹沙灘/金門大橋的虛擬背景圖

什麼虛擬背景圖都不要放啦～

我的家美最重要，我不在乎你的家美不美，我只是來看命的。

如果你的Wi-Fi不是很強，電腦功能不是很厲害，這類的虛擬背景圖會讓你的視訊畫面卡卡的。

有時你轉個身，整個右邊不見了，或部份的頭髮少了，讓我覺得我好像在看恐怖片，嚇人啊～

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四、環境和聲音

有些海外客人其實非常用心。為了與我視訊，特別去買有麥克風的耳機🎧，讓我能更清楚的聽到他們的聲音。😍

沒有使用耳機和麥克風的客人，往往他們的聲音會有種空氣般的回音，如果他們本身講話又小聲，我的耳機聲量開滿，我還是聽得滿辛苦的

也有香港和馬來西亞客人租過會議室、鐘點房間或單人工作室，就是為了不受家人的干擾，能安心的與我視訊。😍

最有趣的是，去年新加坡阻斷措施時，有位男客人跑到屋外的走廊坐在地上與我視訊。只是外頭風聲有點大，我好幾次都聽不清楚他的聲音。

曾有客人在咖啡廳與我視訊。咖啡廳裡的高談闊論聲和器皿的敲擊聲，頻頻從我的耳機闖進我的耳朵，哇～我的耳朵那時真的是活受罪，還要裝一副氣定神閒的樣子。

天啊，兩次過後，我寧願退錢，也不再見這樣的客人了。耳朵只有一對，我要保護好啊！

在這裡聲明：一般我們買手機時的那種有麥克風的耳機，就已能視訊。沒有戴耳機和麥克風的客人，我一概會拒絕諮詢，把費用原銀奉還。

五、孩子

曾試過諮詢的前20分鐘，一直被女客人的小孩打擾，進來哭著要媽媽主持公道。

如果你家中有六歲以下的兒童，會時不時來敲你的門，我建議你還是先別約我。你這樣會分心，無法聽好我交代的事，而我也得一直等你去安撫你的孩子，就無法在限定時間內看完你的八字，這樣對誰都不公平。

六、我只見客人一人

這個規矩，從我一出道就定下來，也清楚的寫在網站上，根本不用一而再的來試探水溫。

但這兩個星期，還是有客人硬闖關，事先安排自己的配偶/孩子坐在電腦的另一面，要他們聽我講他的八字。

我從不改我的規矩，也沒有八字或風水是我非看不可的。

讀書這麼高，連自己的命都不能自己負責，這已經不是能改到命的人了。

你一定要你的配偶陪你聽，那你需要的不是我來教你改命，是你的配偶來安你的心。

將來若還有這樣的事，我會直接中斷視訊，把錢退回去。

七、「我第一次用Zoom！」

可是從報名那天到今天的諮詢，你有兩個月的時間去摸索。

兩個月，怎麼還是錯誤百出？因為客人根本沒有事先準備和練習。

結果我就這樣等了20分鐘，還得等對方下載軟件。

Zoom不難使用，但如果是你沒有花時間去摸索，就不要撒謊，直接說，我就直接退現錢。

品德是改命的資糧，不要為了自己能脫身就隨便編一個漏洞百出的謊，還說自己是好人。這...不會臉皮太厚了嗎？

小事都不願做好，絕對不會成大器。

八、暈車

有些客人用Ipad或手機來視訊。

重點是，他一支手拿著手機，一支手拿筆寫筆記。他一邊寫，另一支手就一邊搖晃。他做在床上，移動一下，手機就彷彿大海嘯幾下🌊

我一天如果見三個這樣客人，我的視線就搖晃了5個小時。工作完畢後，頭也會痛得厲害，無法完成晚上製片的工作。

沒有自拍器三腳架，也應該有些書本或東西來頂著手機。

各位，多點善心，為我著想一下吧⋯⋯

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To My Dear Zoom Clients

I have been enduring it for a really really long time. That's it! I am gonna put a stop to this after today and send out this reminder to all my past and future clients.

I am getting on in years, and cannot stand too much stimulation.

Please.... can you guys do a proper Zoom?

Number 1: Going on screen in Zoom = Taking a photograph for your passport.

Since 2020, the passport has become something of an antique but I believe everyone has taken some kind of ID photos! Yes, the ones with your neatly combed trusses where I can see both your ears, nose, mouth, neck, shoulder all the way to your chest.

I would like to see your full face during the Bazi Consultation. Please don't allow half your face to fall off the screen and you end up looking like Zhong Wu Yan! Please also don't hide your mouth making me feel like I am talking to a Arrowana.

When I analyze your facial features, it includes your mouth, teeth and the shape of your mouth while you are talking. Yes, it is down to such level of details.

If your PC / Laptop monitor is too low, please find a book or old newspapers and stack it on top. Please don't let me only see your double chin for that 1.5 hours, as I would probably get the proportion of your face wrong.

Don't keep telling me you are apologetic. Think of a way out.

Number 2: The background lighting.

Too dark, you risk looking like a ghost.

Too bright, I cannot figure out your skin color.

Draw open the curtains, but don't face your back to the sunlight.

If necessary, just turn on the lights!

Number 3: Background images of coconut trees on sandy beaches or the Golden Gate Bridge.

There is no need to put on a virtual background. I only care about how my hone looks, I am not bothered by yours. I am only here to see your Bazi.

If your WIFI signal or your PC / Laptop performance is poor, using the virtual background can often make your Zoom video choppy. Sometimes when you turn your body, one side of your body or some part of your hair will disappear. It's really like one of those spooky movies scaring the wits out of me.

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Number 4: Background environment and noise.

Some of my overseas clients really put in effort for our Zoom sessions. They bought a headset with a mic so that I can hear them properly and vice versa.

Those that did not use a earphone or a headset often sounded echo-ish, and if they spoke softly, I would have to turn on the volume on my side full throttle and still have a hard time trying to hear them.

There are some clients from Hong Kong and Malaysia who would rent meeting rooms, hotel rooms or private work spaces by the hour so as to reduce any disturbance from others and better focus on the Zoom session with me.

I recalled an interesting incident during the Circuit Breaker last year. A client from Singapore Zoom-ed with me along the corridor outside his house. Most of the time, I was hearing the howling of the winds rather than his voice.

Some clients sat themselves in coffee places for our session. These places are often filled with loud chatters and the clanging of cups and plates, and my ears suffered terribly. Yet, I have to continue to be seen as composed and attentive.

Goodness me, after 2 of such experiences, I decided that I rather refund these clients and never see them again. I have only 1 pair of ears and I want to protect them at all costs!

A normal earpiece that comes with the purchase of a handphone is good enough for Zoom video calls. For clients who do not have a earpiece/headset and a mic, I would end the consultation and refund the monies.

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Number 5: Children

There was once where a session with a female client was repeatedly disrupted by her kids, running in crying for their mother to settle their quarrels. If you have children below 6 years of age, and likely to interrupt our session, I suggest you don't book a consultation with me.

You will be distracted, unable to focus on my advice and I have to wait for you to clear up the situation with your children, eating into the allowable time for me to complete the consultation. This is unfair to both you and me.

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Number 6: I only meet one person, that is the Client.

I have set this requirement the day I stepped into this line of work, and it is clearly written in my booking form. There is no need to try your luck under any circumstances.

But in the space of 2 weeks, there were some clients who rode their luck and got their spouse / child to sit on the other side of the screen to listen in on our consultation.

I never change my stance, and there is no single client that I cannot afford to lose.

If you insist to have your spouse sit in, it is apparent that you do not need me to help transform your destiny. Rather you really need your spouse to put your heart at ease.

If such things happen the next time, I will end the session immediately and refund the fees.

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Number 7: "My first time using Zoom"

But you have 2 full months to prepare before our actual consultation. You did not end up wasting time exploring the software and I wasted 20 mins waiting for you to download the software.

Zoom is an easy software to use but if you did not spend the time to familiarize yourself with it, please quit the lies and tell me directly. I will refund the consultation fees on the spot.

Our moral ethics serve as the foundation for our transformation. Stop weaving web of lies to get out of sticky situations, and still claim that you are a good person. Isn't this too thick-skinned?

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Number 8: Giddy spells

Some clients use Ipad or their handphones for the Zoom session. Crucially, they hold the device with one hand, and take notes with the other. As they write, the other hand holding the phone becomes shaky. If he is doing that on his bed, his handphone would shake like a tsunami wave every time he changes his position.

If I see 3 such clients within a day, it would be 5 hours of shaking visuals for me. That would mean a splitting headache at the end of my work day, and not being able to work on my videos at night.

Even if you don't have a tripod stand, at least prop up the device with a book or something.

Please everyone, please be kind and have mercy on me......

【天青色等煙雨，而我在等你】(English writing below)

我看著客人眼淚
滴滴答答的打在桌面上
筆記本
濕了
本子上的字
糊了

她的心酸
猶如洪泉遇到崩裂的堤壩
一波一浪的破牆而出

一個被愛情辜負的女子
看了真是心疼

我不由自覺的
想到了自己

你懂我的
像我這樣剛烈的女子
爲了愛情
我絕不退縮
祇是一個勇字
又豈能成事呢

童年
過得心驚膽顫
家裡常吵得
雞犬不寧

爸爸沒想要
把我生下
媽媽常說
要把我趕出去

我很努力讀書
我很努力做個乖孩子
我覺得我做得很好
人小小本事很大
但這些終究無法
讓我在美滿的家庭長大

多少個夜晚裡
我被媽媽打得
想奪門而出
永不再見
可是想到誰來照顧她
我又忍下來

我很恨
為何我命運不如人

第一次談戀愛時
我是多麼多麼的雀躍
內心裡的煙花
不斷地爆開
我終於等到了
不再是
沒人要的孩子了

我終於
值得有人愛了

初戀的絢麗
卻也如七彩美麗的煙花
一聲巨響後
就消失在漆黑的夜裡

他常常在我面前
提到他如何深愛著
他中學時的校花
她是如此的美好

有一次
這校花來我們的學校
他得知後
破課室的門而出
沒見到她
他哭了一整個星期

心中的不安
讓我常常與他吵架
三年零八個月裡
我不是一個好女友
服滿兵役後
他喜歡上大學迎新會
的一位混血兒

後來
我和一位校友打了幾次桌球
某夜
他在ICQ向我索吻
對他的印象
就一落千丈了
（你以為老娘在賤賣嗎？）
不久一位朋友告訴我
他約會的對象
不只我一個

我有一位
很好很好的朋友
我在新加坡時
他常陪我
深夜打桌球到清晨
聊佛法聊人生
一起上佛學班
一起學國標舞
從未有一個人
如此瞭解我的心
如此照顧著我

但無所不談的當兒
他也不斷告訴
這麼多年來
他如何愛念著
一個女孩
對她始終無法忘懷

我又輸給
活在記憶中的人了

我這一份單戀
長達兩年
很磨人很磨人很磨人
差一點走不出來

第二次談戀愛
他常在我面前提起
一個他追了半年追不到的女孩
他說
有一天一定要去問她
為什麼不選擇他

在家裡的毒打
並沒有隨著我成人
而停止

後來拜師學藝
卻因爲品德不良
被師父一句
「你不是我要找的人。」
斷然吃了閉門羹

那天我哭得痛徹心扉
覺得自己
好像是
個沒人要的孩子

方文山因爲
八百年前
宋徽宗皇帝御批的這句
「雨過天青雲破處」
而在周傑倫《青花瓷》裡
寫了『天青色等煙雨，而我在等你』

他說
愛情里最無力的無奈
就是「等待」
天青色得等待
不知何時會降的雨
雨停
積雲散去
朗朗晴空中
天青色才能顯現
如同我
只能被动而安静的
等待着
不知何时才会出现的妳。

慢慢的
我開始認為
我這輩子等不到了
月老應該沒幫我
綁上紅線

學佛多年後
忽然恍然大悟
一個道理
没有东西是必须拥有的
沒有它
也不代表自己的不足

愛情
是一個填不滿的慾望
所以愛情劇長紅

在2015年2月21日年初三，根本上師蓮生活佛在台灣中天綜合電視台的訪談中說：https://youtu.be/EPDxwSt6a5I （時間12:08）

「師尊本身的愛是這樣的。我既然愛她，就是要她幸福，不是要佔有她，這種愛不是佔有，其實愛不是佔有。如果愛是佔有的話，那就是屬於慾望。如果愛不是佔有，我是祝福她，雖然我愛她，她不愛我，她愛別人，我就祝福她。如果愛別人會比較幸福，我就祝福她。這種愛就不是佔有的愛。如果是佔有的愛，一定會產生痛苦。」

原來我真正在等的
是自己
自己的智慧開了
心變闊達時
才不會讓他人決定
自己幾時可以幸福
可以幸福多久
命運在我手中
怎麼走本來就是我說了算

我輕輕的拿起桌上的紙巾，遞給女客人。她一把鼻涕，一把眼淚的向我道謝。

借了師父慣用的笑話，我柔聲細語的說：「別哭，新加坡缺水，要哭要到蓄水池哭，這樣我們可以少看馬來西亞的臉色做人。」

她破涕而笑。

我再說：「我看了妳的八字，現在又看到妳真人，勸你跟我講話老實一點，要不然我幫不到妳。妳明明一直做人家的小三，還敢跟我哭沒有男人要和妳結婚？妳不也偷偷拿了他不少錢嗎？我看妳明明就是一張愛錢的臉。」

奉勸各位大俠，在我面前，若要用眼淚爲武器，請三思，因爲虛偽的，我必定拆你面具。

..........................

I looked at the teardrops of my client, pitter patter onto the table top. My client's notebook got wet. The words got muddled.

All the pains in her heart were like the angry river crushing through a broken dam, tearing down the walls as the tears flowed.

To see a lady being let down by love was indeed heart-breaking.

I couldn't help but thought of myself.

You know me. An unyielding character like mine will not shrink like a coward in the name of love. Alas, there are things in life that can't be accomplished solely with courage.

My childhood was filled with a lot of fear. There were often quarrels at home.

My dad didn't want me to be born. My mum often said she wanted to chase me out of the house.

I studied very hard. I did my utmost to be an obedient kid, and I thought I did very well as young child but I was already very capable. However, all these were not enough for me to grow up in a complete family.

So many nights, I got beaten up so badly by my mum that I wanted to just break out of the door and never to see her again. But the mere thought of nobody looking after her pulled me back.

I hated so much. Why wasn't my destiny comparable to other people?

When I first fell in love, I was so elated. The fireworks in my heart exploded non-stop. I finally found someone. I was no longer that child which nobody wanted. I was finally worthy of someone's love.

The splendour of first love, however, was as temporal as the rainbow-coloured fireworks. After a loud explosion, it vanished into the darkness of night.

He would often tell me in my face, how much he pined for and loved his secondary school crush, apparently the prettiest and most perfect girl in school.

Once, this campus belle came to our school. When he got wind of the news, he dashed out of the classroom. Failing to see her, he cried for one whole week.

My insecurity caused me to quarrel with him often. In those 3 years and 8 months, I wasn't a great girlfriend. After his NS, he got together with a girl of mixed blood at his university's Orientation camp.

I played pool with a uni mate a few times. One night over ICQ, he teased me for a kiss. My impression of him dropped like hot cakes. Did I look like I was lelong-ing myself? Later, a girl pal told me that he was dating several girls at the same time.

I had a very good friend. Whenever I was in Singapore, he would accompany me to play pool till wee hours. We talked about Dharma, life, and we attended Buddhism and ballroom dancing classes together. I had never met a person who understood me and took care of me so well.

But among our endless conversations of everything and anything, he always told me how he still loved a girl from his school. He couldn't forget her.

Again, I lost to someone who lived in the memory of the guy I liked.

This one-sided love of mine burned for two years. It was very, very, very excruciating. I almost didn't make it out alive.

In my second relationship, the boyfriend would always tell me about a pretty girl whom he pursued for half a year, but failed to win her heart. He told me firmly that if he had the chance, he wanted to ask her why she did not choose him.

The abusive beating at home did not stop even after I grew up.

Later on, when I wanted to become Shifu's disciple, he turned me down flat because he didn't think I had good morals and values. He was blunt, "You are not the person I am looking for."

That night, I cried painfully hard. Suddenly, I felt like I was the kid from my childhood whom nobody wanted.

800 years ago, Emperor Huizong of Song Dynasty wrote in an imperial decree "雨過天青雲破處". It was this that inspired Vincent Fang (方文山) to write the lyrics 『天青色等煙雨，而我在等你』in Jay Chou's song 青花瓷 (Blue and white porcelain).

Vincent Fang said, the most powerless kind of helplessness in love was waiting.

The sky green colour had to wait for the rain, which it had no idea when it would arrive. After the rain stopped, the thick clouds dissipated, in the clear skies, the sky green colour would then be able to appear. This was just like how he could only passively and quietly wait, for his lady whom he had no idea when she would appear.

Gradually, I started thinking that in this lifetime, I would not be able to wait for that person to appear. Perhaps Yue Lao (the elderly celestial under the moon) did not tie the red string on me.

After many years of learning the Dharma, one day, I suddenly came to the realisation that nothing is a must to own.

Secular love is a black hole of desires. That is why romantic shows are evergreen.

On 21 February 2015, the 3rd day of the Lunar New Year, my Root Guru Living Buddha Lian-Sheng spoke in an interview with the Taiwan CTI Television Inc.: https://youtu.be/EPDxwSt6a5I （timestamp 12:08）

"My personal take on love is this. Since I love her, I will want her to be blissful, and not to possess her. Such love isn't possession. Actually love isn't possession. If love is possession, that belongs to desire. If love isn't desire, I will wish her well. Although I love her, she doesn't love me, but loves another person, so I will give her my best wishes. If loving another person brings her more happiness, I will wish her well. Such love isn't possessive love. If it is possessive love, there will surely be pain."

Then I realised, the one that I had been waiting all along for is myself. Waiting for my wisdom to develop, waiting for my heart to be more open, so that I would not place my happiness in the hands of another person, and let the person decide for me when I should be happy, for how long I can stay happy...

My destiny is in my hands. How it pans out is up to me to say.

I gently picked up a serviette from the table and passed it to my lady client. In a mush of mucus and tears, she thanked me.

Borrowing an old joke from Shifu, I gently told her, "Don't cry. Singapore lacks water. If you want to cry, you should cry at a nearby reservoir. This way, we don't have to see the colours of Malaysia in order to get more water."

She broke into a smile among her tears.

I continued, "After looking at your Bazi, and now that I have seen you in person, I advise you to be more honest with me, or else I will not be able to help you. You have all along been a mistress to other men, and you dare to come crying to me that no man wanted to marry you? Didn't you also stole some money from them? The way I see you, you obviously have a money grubber face."

My advice to all swordsmen: If you wish to use your tears as a weapon in front of me, think thrice. Because if you are a hypocrite, I will definitely rip your mask apart.

詞Lyrics：毛恩Morpheus
曲Composer：毛恩Morpheus
編曲Beat Arrangement :證介
製作Producer：阿吉A JI
錄音Recording Engineer : 阿吉A JI
混音Mixing：阿吉A JI
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人都是自私的產物，都會做出對自己對好的決定
你可以選擇在谷底沉淪，不斷輪迴
或選擇放下過去，變成更好的自己。
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Its not a fairytale but true story in life
feels like nightmare corrupt me a hundred times
destiny is brutal no matter how I tried
whispers from the devil interferes my mind
she’s the redemption the antidote just arrived
Heart beat was taken didn’t even realize
Give me love the best present of all time
Bring me courage to face the fear deep inside

Things changed without awareness unexpected
Losing faith no doubt dramatic got abandoned
all assumes ain't no truth don’t know how to do
Damn I’m screwed no more clue difficult to choose I
Can’t read between the lines may be foolish or blind
hard to see through what’s behind this made me terrified
after all the pain its all in vain
I loved u once but nothing remained

There is no more turning back Pearl harbor under attack
Now its time to fight it back no more questions need to ask
Better watch out every step its gonna end up bloody
Hand down something before death missile launcher is ready

I’m drown its dark and still fallin’
the world is in slow motion
light it up flames on you can feel my surge
Strike out enemy down killin like this purge
Its dawn here comes a new legend risin’
Setting up a revolution
You’ll be getting a taste of your own medicine.
Revenge is never too late for all that u have done

Same surroundings different feelings is confusing me
keep on lying she starts crying saying sorry please
Hands tied in this combat relationship is complex
u got hurt from ur ex and choose me to hurt next
Frustration and compassion I’m stuck inside the middle
struggle in my self-conscious let me make it more simple
My girl's been playing games make sure she’s gonna pay for it
I Gotta move and make moves its time I buy my ticket

Bounce back from depression from all bad moods
looking forward to the future make dreams come true
Its Now or never cover the scars with new tattoos
Rebirth comes after the darkness we passed through
Grinding all my life building up my own business
Not even scared of height watch you all hater speechless
show no mercy bitch im sorry there will be no-where safe
I’ll be watchin can’t stop laughin u dig ur own grave

lion is waken new king comin can’t be tamed crowds all insane
Im a monster getting higher lips on fire I’m spitting flame
Bad decision how dare u messin with a beast broke down the cage
In position my gun is aiming pull the trigger blow up ur face

Im drown its dark and I’m still fallin
the world is in slow motion
light it up flames on you can feel my surge
Strike out enemy down killin like this purge
Its dawn here comes a new legend risin’
Setting up a revolution
You’ll be getting a taste of your own medicine.
Revenge is never too late for all that u have done

one day when u try to keep someone close
this curse shows and leave u on your own
u are not innocent
but a player with prayer hands till the end
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呢隻歌係我上年生日正日寫既............個時心情好down
內容都係我既感受 ,我經常會諗既野 ......係幾段自己同 自己既 對話 。


第五作品 September 4th

IF U WANNA TRY
go trying hard,
IF U WANNA CRY
so ..cry out loud,
THERE IS NO BIG DEAL ....TO YOU .....AND ANYTHING
so try .....and cry .....

I"M GETTING OLD
rely on your life,
SOMETHING GET INSIDE
deep inside my heart
THERE IS NO BIG DEAL ....TO YOU .....AND ANYTHING
so try .....and cry .....

IF U WANNA DIE
think and realize,
DON'T U GET THE POINT?
come on try to find
THERE IS NO BIG DEAL ....TO YOU .....AND ANYTHING
so try .....and cry .....

SING HAPPY BRITHDAY
bring a little life,
EVERYING WILL BE CHANGE
in your furture time
THERE IS NO BIG DEAL ....TO YOU .....AND ANYTHING
so try .....and cry .....


KEPP TRYING AND STOP CRYING
keep trying and stop crying


END.

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